king

a king, the feeling you have made me into,
an empire i shall build for you.

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"one": inspired by a conversation with yasmin ahmad

like how one simple song can transform moods,
how one common word can trigger many emotions,
how one single thought item can generate a plethora of ideas;
it only takes one person to inspire thousands.

rest in peace, yasmin.
(1958-2009)
...and we just hold on.

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200709

life as you know it keeps on intensifying, but yet
i still seek for the possibility that's disappearing, coz at
zero-gravity when i'm with you is still one of the best
things, i've ever had.





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i dream in 3D

“We shape our buildings; thereafter they shape us.”

realisation

initially my days with or without you were thought to be irrelevant,
thoughts at first seemed insignificant,
but now i quickly realise the real, the unconquerable and the unbeatable

- that i'm only in denial.

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collision

ideally, should two minds collide, energy is exchanged and therefore change should be inevitable.

when the emotions of two individuals sum up into one, a new distinct emotion should come into being.

so only when there's collision that causes fusion involving the mind and emotions between two individuals, we'll start encountering the process of immortalisation that we all instinctively seek.

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lovers' equilibrium

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journal entry #98

i'm here and you're there. and our heads are everywhere. and this is beyond repair - because about us, i don't think nature cares.

but we can't really let go. we're dangerously enjoying the ride, though. just going wherever, to whatever direction it flows.

so leave, and i'll leave. but can we really?

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experience

"...life is like playing a violin solo in public and learning the instrument as one goes on..."
samuel butler

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as zero hour amplifies reasons

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melodic words: part three

"and how in the world did you come / to be such a lazy love?"

sleeping? / glen hansard

"there's no point trying to fight it / when your mind's made up.
so, if you ever want something / and you call / then i'll come running."
when your mind's made up / glen hansard

transitions

a few times in our lives, we encounter moments where significant life changing decisions will have to be made. whether it be out of a mind-boggling dilemma, or something that you don't have to think twice about, these are times of meeting with life's turning points. points where it would set a new tangent in your journey, whether the unknown outcome be for the worse or better. this thought process while we experience these life-changing phases is part of our journey's transition: a psychological limbo.

of course, whatever decision we make is always based on a positive outcome, but because the human evolutional state is not as advanced as we'd like it to be, there is going to be an extent of uncertainty that comes along with going into a new place. this transitional period involving the mind moving at no less than 1000km/hr, usually contains a designer-drug-like concoction of emotions: some exciting, some motivating, with a touch of leftover feeling of the current life thats about to be history, and that occasional anxiety of entering something that may be of unfamiliar territory.

that said, we're not filing this under anything adverse, or even anything good for that matter. we're just acknowledging it of it's existence. this psychological 'waiting time' usually feels seemingly empty but the brain probably subconsciously rides through this period reflecting on the recent past, and preparing itself of the relatively unknown near-future - thus explaining the possible unfamiliar behaviours, emotions and thoughts during the transition.

we feel it, we can't avoid it, we go through it. but how do we handle it? i say, embrace this exciting transitional state-of-mind while it lasts, and congratulations on your decision.

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