money

02:55 "...you don't care about money because you've always had it."
the aviator (2004)

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the sun is out and i'm hearing your song on the radio

"what could be better than right this minute" is the question i find myself asking this morning. just 12 hours ago we were on a different vibe entirely - we talked of how your life direction isn't going where you planned it to go, and how we were trying to figure you out a way out of this lifestyle that you're "beginning to outgrow". just hold on, i said. when you've exhausted all possible solutions and you have done all you can within your reach to make everything better, sometimes you should just pause, sit back, and just wait. and this morning your song played on the radio. yes, after 5 years of seemingly useless persistence, patience, good and bad times, emotional rollercoasters, this morning together we finally heard you on the radio for the first time.

i can only imagine how it's feeling for you. i'm feeling like i'm at the top of the world right now for you and i guess what's going on in your head right now is maybe even trickling into a different universe right now! right now i see this girl twirling with euphoric excitement in the living room, turning up the radio, frantically texting her friends, and then trying to come to terms with this reality, forcing herself to wake up from a lazy saturday morning daze with her usual espresso and cigarettes. you are oh-so-human.

what a switch of emotions from last night! such turns of events seem sudden, but if you look at it from a wider angle, it was all going to go through anyway. sometimes we've got to understand - that wait, that gap, that gray space, that time of uncertainty, is part of the process as well. at times the result may be negative, other times glorious; but regardless of what it is, we should sometimes let time play a part as well.

"just hold on" were the words that took us through this and these same words will take myself endure my own trying times. i thank you for letting me on this inspiring emotional rollercoaster ride with you. we'll see what comes after this, because after the wait, comes the next chapter.

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